Rants and Raves

Let me start by articulating my fondest compliments to mother nature for the adequately comfortable amount of rainfall and wind that has been descending on the smog infested, heat afflicted and noisy metropolis. Although it has been stated that the effects of tropical rains affect the rural areas differently compared to the urban centers, I now officially feel greedy for praising something that has not really had a great effect on myself but has wrecked havok on the lives of others... I now feel like a jerk.

Talking about jerks... How does one qualify to be a jerk? Is there a certain criteria for a male to be considered a jerk? Unlike the female version which is a "bitch", men rarely advertise the fact that they are "jerky" as compared to women who proudly call themselves "bitchy" or refer to themselves as a "bitch". Returning to the measure of jerkiness, I have no idea how one can be considered a jerk. Is it being discourteous to women or being a gentleman but having many women? All this stems from the need to understand the female psyche to better enhance male-female relations. Additional insights on this topic is requested from anyone who could spare the time to discuss the issue.

After a week and half sojourn from the work place I have returned. Previously, my health problems have been piling up aalong with medical bills that I can ill afford and I had assumed the worst, contemplating where I could've gone wrong in my life (the list seems endless) in preparation for the final curtains. Yes, paranoia did set in. After consulting with a few doctors, undergoing countless medical examinaitons including asthma and highblood, i was just recently given a clean bill of health. Absolutely nothing wrong with my corporeal form, healthy as an ox! or atleast a healthy ox. The next question was now probing at the cause of it all. the shortness of breath, the bouts of highblood and the heart palpitations. The conclusion was these were anxiety attacks, directly related to stess and distress, both at the workplace and at home.

Why would I be stressed at work? The long 13 hour days seems normal for most people, most people seem to be able to handle lectures and scoldings from the boss and low pay never really got anybody sick. Well the reasons seem endless at this point, the cure though has been repeatedly mentioned by cousins and relatives since the onset of the initail attack: look for a new job.

But I must admit that the stress is not exclusive to the office, pressure and stress at home may have been a contributing factor so I am in the process of searching for ways to relieve that stress, although the thought process involved in stressful enough hehehe.

I know I am three weeks behind on the "Daily dose of the Geneva Convention of 1949" which I probly might just turn into a weekly dose, as a daily update may mean that I will not complete anything for work. I would not wish to be stressed and unproductive.